Daily NhanSense – Day 15

Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 15’s Topic: Social media.

A few weeks ago, I made a decision to deactivate my personal Facebook account. Like, it wasn’t that big of a deal or anything, but I felt compelled to test a hunch I had lurking in the back of my mind for a while.

And that was: if I were to “disappear” from Facebook for a while, would anyone notice?

Lo and behold, I turned off my Facebook and nothing really happened. But this was to be expected.

I have isolated myself for years now, and I just found myself often peeking around on Facebook to see what my friends and peers have been up to. At times, I can embarrassingly admit that I grew envious of what I would come across here and there.

A fancy job offer. Personal advancement. A brand-new car. Just whatever.

On one hand, I probably should be happy for them that they are moving ahead in life, but conversely I was feeling jealous that I was still more or less “stuck” and anchored to my circumstances.

Then again, one also has to remember that the grass is always greener on the other side. People love using Facebook as a means to set up some nice window dressing. I guess it is safe to assume not everything is as grand as it appears, though you shouldn’t rule out that things could in fact be going swimmingly for certain individuals.

But I had to cut that portion of Facebook out of my life, at least for now.

Some say you shouldn’t compare yourself with others because we aren’t all the same. I do agree with this idea to some degree, but I also think it’s OK to look at others as benchmarks to figure out where you want to be in life.

I have been through the ringer many times over the years. Sometimes, I thought I wouldn’t make it through, but here I am today surviving … albeit, a lot of it isn’t ideal per se.

To be alive is one thing. To feel alive is something entirely different.

I know that I am not living to my full potential. I realize I am not where I should be in life, but every day I am constantly striving to change and improve myself.

Discarding elements that haven’t been working for me has been hard. You cannot just convert yourself into a new-and-improved version overnight. You have to put in the effort. You have to put in the time and energy to make it all happen.

I turned off my Facebook account to see if anyone would bother contacting me, to see if anyone would acknowledge that I, Nhan, just dropped off the grid out of the blue.

Apparently, I am not significant enough to warrant even a “Where did you go?” It’s a sad state of affairs for me if that’s the case.

I guess it’s time I made myself more noteworthy. I probably will end up turning on my personal Facebook account at some point, and I won’t rule out at least making a Facebook page for this blog site.

Just for the time being, I want to plan my next moves accordingly.

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction